In case you have forgotten

I am only 21. I say things I don't mean, I mean things I don't say. I have always found myself to be an open and tell-all kind of person, but recently realized there are a lot of things I am starting to keep to myself. I am holding my secrets dearly, and becoming afraid to share and then lose.
I change my mind a lot, and my opinion can be swayed easily; not because I am insecure or so malleable, but rather because I am learning new things everyday, and I try to be open minded.
My opinions change frequently so please don't think less of me or see me as easily swayed, but instead see me as a constantly growing and changing human being. I am open to all possibilities and with each new experience, the way I see the world will change.
In true contradiction to the previous, being 21 seems to qualify me to think I know everything. So if I argue with you, become stubborn and hard headed, its because I know what I want, or at least I think I know what I want. Its what I want in that moment, but tomorrow I may want something completely different. Maybe in 5 minutes I will want something completely different.
I'm not perfect, and I am not claiming to be. I do claim to be female though, and you should take that into consideration. I love life, whether its my life, the life of the newborn baby I got to hold, or the life of the 70 year old woman I chat with at Kanaha.
I can be emotional for the better or for the worse. W hen I am passionate about something, you will know it. I wear my heart on my sleeve, and my facial expressions tell all my secrets, if you know how to read me right.
Although I am quite different than many 21 year olds that I know, please remember: I am 21 and sometimes I am going to act like it. Forgive me for my mistakes and let me learn by doing. I want to make my own decisions and choices, make my own mistakes, and hopefully learn from them. Just accept it.
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That being said...

Yesterday I was exhausted and tired and lost in my head. I went to Kanaha and expected a less that great session.
I was surprised and stoked to find some nice wind on the outside. It wasn't consistent wind, but more up and down, mostly powered but a little underpowered on my 4.8. It was nice wind though, relaxing wind. No catch you off guard and over the handlebars type of gusts. Just cruise wind. The small waves were perfect for me. Maybe some head high sets? I actually rode a couple waves fairly confidently. When I turned to head back out, I always happened to be timed perfectly between sets. I did a couple little chop jumps and landed suprising grace. I can't jibe for anything on my freaking little board, but I did flip the sail and switch my feet. And then my board would round upwind really quick and I would fall. (Any suggestions for me?)

If I get off work early today I am going to grab a standup board and do some longboard sailing at Kanaha before I head to the restaurant to work.

Life is good and I am in denial that next week my life will change drastically.